written 24th May 2005:

U r like an onion with many layers, just a little bit is enough to flavour anyone's life, u attract people with ur tangy scent, but u can also make them cry, and you cannot be replaced by any other spice.

Did i really write that? The words flowed so easily then, I remember. Words I can't seem to find again. I've forgotten the feeling, the rush, everything. Everything that used to make me feel alive.
It really scares the shit out of me sometimes, because I will fall flat and dull again without it. You added the life into me, like waking me up. I dont want to lose it. What do i do? What can i do?