I can't decide whether to give up on you or keep hanging on

clear history?

it's good to learn from the past. my mistakes, my experiences, my struggles, the journey i've been through. there is good in the journey by itself.

but sometimes i want to be new. to erase all the negatives i seemed to pick up so easily from all the guys i've fallen for, turned to, found comfort and friendship in, kept secrets from. im tired of picking up and keeping negatives. they seemed to have made a home in my chest and cast a dark cloud over my heart. the best thing is, i dont think i learned anything...

it's like the pop up that says "this browser has 999 cookies" and i just kept pressing "continue". the future is so bleak. perhaps because what im heading to, is already is a page in my past? i dont feel new. i feel trapped, going in reverse.

i still don't get it. she seems so basic and you seem quite different. is that why you're not 100% committed to her? am i just an innocent passer-by that somehow became the side casualty of your doubt.

whatever. i refuse. i make a judgment, right now, that i won't be a part of it anymore. no matter who else is or isn't there.

i wont be like you, or E. i wont be that girl who settles. i'll be with someone who interests and surprises me all the time. i would rather be alone than be with someone i'm not 100% committed to.