Life goes on... alone

i have lots of things to do.
I choose to be happy being alone.
I choose to be happy with my tons of work.
I decide to be happy, no matter what happens to the people around me, even though I care too much. I make my own decisions

me and my fantasies.... (:

i have nothing to fear, anymore. it's out there, as much as it can be without hurting anyone.I am morally vindicateddddd. like the song.

back to my harmless fantasies.

back to work, business as usual.

im free. I AM FREE :)

Khalisa says:
look
just now i watched a show
it was called the Moment of Truth
it's a real show
and the contestants had to answer questions from friends
and the friends could ask them anything they wanted to know
you can ask me something
but if you don't want to, then you don't want to know and that's fine too
-KuoPing says:
haha
we are good as we are
no need to ask
i have nothing to ask at least
Khalisa says:
okay :)
-KuoPing says:
i know wad i need
nothing more
Khalisa says:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=slXOzhsKoVQ
it's funny

easier to lie

i had every intention of being completely honest yesterday.

but i know you don't really want to hear, and i don't have the courage to say something you don't really want to hear and i don't really want to say. i think the job is done though. you understand where the boundaries are, and what i am concerned about. don't be wilfully blind anymore.

we have an understanding. im sure of it.
so no you, and no chiraphol in week 10.

i know exactly what's going

YOU--

definitely like me, and think i am cute. i am very endearing to you.

you enjoy my company. you certainly dont mind it. you want to be with me

you don't have passionately for your girlfriend. i represent something different, new exciting.

let's zoom out further to see more clearly.

you know at the back of your mind that it will be difficult to ever be with me.

i will be objective

what you and your girlfirend have, has lasted for 5 plus years. that, in and of itself, is precious. it's almost like growing up together. she's probably your habit by now, a part of yourself. being apart from her is probably like tearing something off yourself.

i dont have 5 years. i've got nothing on me. i am just me.

just me. i am all that i have, while you have her.

don't you see?

I received some really good news in the mail from Austin I Pulle yesterday, and i felt happier. 9 day extension! I love him.
What's even happier is that I'm staying home to do work today. Although my mum was not so happy. I can't please, just because I'm me, and she's her. I won't feel guilty.
What will make me even happier is if today is a productive day, and tomorrow I go to school and meet my friends and have a happy day.
2 days ago I was so down in the dumps I considered compromising what I feel. Now I feel different.

I feel new. If I can't make a new friend, then I will be my own brand new friend.
It's time to depend on me for happiness.

:)

i'd like to make myself believe that planet Earth turns slowly

it's hard to make myself believe that I'd rather be awake when I'm asleep,
Cos nothing is ever as it seems.

i want to be in a relationship. i want someone to be mine.

SO. what else is new hahaha.

500 days of Summer is a good movie. I'm ready to move on.

mid term break resolutions

1) finish my ethics paper

2) start on finance research

3) print out and study finance for the rest of the term

4) start on commercial conflicts paper

5) clear up my commerical conflicts backlog for week 5-7 and week 9.

6) go for kayaking and enjoy it.

7) time--waste not, want not

finance miderms

so, wednesday. I had alot of things going on. But i got through it ok, i think.

i got through this hell week. only left with finance midterms tmr. gonna study till quite late tonight. Maybe 4 am? then wake at 7.45 tmr and OFF I GO for my finance midterms! 20% dun play play hor. i wanna do well....

after that, will read for evidence midterms.

ok time to focus. hopefully all goes well tmr.