i don't wanna know that lover at my door, if he's just another heartache on my list

I want to be who I am chasing what I want, with no regrets

will you indulge in your sadness?

there's a vast expanse of barren, empty space in my heart that i'm always trying to ignore. Either one day someone will bring the flowers and the greens and the colour into it, or i will just get used to that vast empty loneliness.

Both options seem equally unlikely.

That's life, i guess.

i am tired and i miss you

or maybe i just miss simplicity.

No regrets

what you can NEVER EVER do is regret yuor decisions. What's done is done and cannot be undone.

Have faith girl.Just because you let this one go doesn't mean you'll be lonely for the rest of your life. Someone better will come along

Buoyant

It feels like floating on your back in the gentle early morning light, in a lake or infinite swimming pool, without a care in the world, with the gentle coolness of the water under your body lapping at your side and the sun's warm glow on your skin, with that undefined blank blueness above you, a cloudless sky, and all you hear is silence, and what you wish to hear. You feel for a moment at peace, and safe in your solitude. Close your eyes or open your eyes it doesn't matter, move your limbs or not it makes no difference. Your in between, and the world surrounds you with its secrets.

The dawn of Saturday

I terawih-ed for the FIRST time in the mosque today. I didn't really concentrate too much, but it really felt great. I will do it again next friday, or when the fancy strikes me. Beats watching boring movies. :) I like solat

I've been having an influx of random guys in my life lately. Maybe there's a reason for all this. I CERTAINLY didn't go looking for it. That Adzfar guy even asked me where I had been hiding all this while. I know he's not the one for me. So what exactly is the lesson I'm supposed to learn from him? Or Pravin? Or Kuo Ping?

Maybe that I'm really a girl's girl, and that's sufficient for the moment, until the guy God has for me, who I'm sure will have a heart and soul made of gold, appears in my life.

Week 3 has been slightly better than Week 2. And now i REALLY need to prepare to start Week 4 off with a BANG :)

Evidence Law here I come.

here's to a productive night

Preparing and finishing all my notes for week 3 of conflicts. Must read mother allot of mother long cases.

I will not go onto msn