please dont cry khalisa

I cant wait for this to be SO OVER.

i used to wonder

I used to wonder, and question, and yearn and rebel in my heart
And worry.
Now i just worry,a low and mild worry.

What happens if i don't wonder?
What happens afer that?

I feel like my life force is at its lowest now

i'm not heartless...

I won't lose myself, I won't forget who I am. I know I'm not heartless, or thoughtless, or cruel, or self-centred. I'm not all that. I know I can be very loving, and caring and giving and thoughtful.

In spite of everything that has happened. I won't doubt myself. I know who I am and what I'm like. I know I am a good and caring person. I will never hurt anyone on person or make them feel like they are unworthy or valueless.

I am not a cruel and unkind person

i love you.

i don't know you, at all. but i love you. it's real to me. it makes me happy, and stronger, and more excited. It picks me up when I'm down. Every little word, every look and smile, makes me ridiculously happy, and i want to keep it, in my heart, in indestructible places, to make those moments whole and tangible, and wrap them up carefully and store them away safely where i can take them out again, when im sad, and tired, and defeated, and those moments can pick me up again.

i can't bear the thought of not seeing you anymore. i cant.

what i need is for you to believe in me

I'm ok. I'm ok. I'm ok. I'm ok. I'm ok. I'm ok. I'm great. I'm ok.

I am okay.

where are you? where are you? where are you right now?

Why do you never talk to me? Why don't you ever listen?

You're the person who makes me saddest in my life.