My internship has ended, alhamdulillah.

I learnt as much as I could from it.

I am learning that maybe disappointment is not written in my stars, that I am a less than ordinary person

my heart

If i could take my heart and hold it in my hands to warm it up.
It's cold, so cold.
This world is a cold place.
And my feet are running out of ground... to escape the empty lonely spaces that I see everywhere I turn.
No-one is offering me an alternative, no-one is there.
I hear the gaping silences, my halting bravery can't fill it up.
I end, when I don't want to, but I end before you can.
This world is nothing but a place full of doubts amd fears and pain and pretence.
Pretend that everything is alright.
Can you hear time ticking on? Every second stretches on wasted.
You cannot get a handle to start steering your way through.
Why are you searching in these empty spaces?

I thought you were done.

Hope

my all time favourite phrase is:

"When one door closes, anoother opens, or a window opens."

I'll let a door close, and I'll let a window open. Breathe Khalisa.

We all need hope in dark times.

We need, well, I need, Hope.

Here's another phrase i never understood.

"If you want love, the universe will align to give you what you want."
riddle me that, doctor love, the orderer of the universe.
Cos all i want is love.
:)

if i keep quiet, will these "things" go away?

i call them things, cos i can't exactly call them worries, or difficulties, or setbacks, or like, whatever.

they exist cos i exist. it's a predilection of being me.

this shouldnt be difficult, but it is, because i am me.

and i can't tell you, cos you don't understand. you can't understand. it's the thing that will make you go huh??

pls understand me. someone?